Everything Happens for a Reason

This saying is so true but it can be a hard pill to swallow when you are handed a major heartbreak. This happened to me recently and I am still struggling at times asking the all too familiar question "Why?". At the end of 2017, I was handed one of those heartbreaking blows. I had spent almost 10 years creating/designing/running The Inn at Wild Rose Hall, my award winning venue nestled just outside of Austin city limits towards the beautiful hill country. So much of my time, energy, blood, sweat and tears went into that business and the rental property but I didn't mind because it was my baby. Never in my wildest dreams did I think when it came available for me to finally purchase the property that it would get sold to someone else. In one email, I lost years of hard work, I became unemployed and I had to let down/stress out 17 couples who were booked for 2018. The anxiety attacks were daily with everything that needed to be done looming and with all the array of emotions the loss brought on. The last 13 days of December, as we moved out, were some of the hardest days I have had to date. It was physically/mentally/emotionally exhausting. We worked 12-15 hour days trying to remove/salvage all the business/personal assets and what I had created there. It closed a door I wasn't in any way ready to close but so often life has a way of doing that it seems. It reminded me of this quote I love.

When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.
— Alexander Graham Bell

I am determined to move on from that closed door but some days are easier than others considering I see that property every day. RRR is the 14.9 acres I purchased back in 2014 that sits directly behind what was once my baby, The Inn at Wild Rose Hall. (As I said I had always planned to purchase it.) So I guess in a way the new door actually opened for me almost 4 years ago without me really realizing what the future would hold and how different it is playing out then I planned. I am however totally in love with Rambling Rose Ranch. There is a peacefulness and a spiritual nature that goes beyond man made stuff. It is my blank canvas to allow my creative mind to 'paint' and as I did at The Inn I will listen to what the land whispers to me as I create. Because ultimately I am not building a business, I am building my homestead that I will get to share with those its beauty speaks to.